2012 in review

so 2012 was an interesting one...

it has been one of the longest and most challenging years of my life.

despite the challenges, though,

it was an incredible year and i wouldn't change a thing.

2013?

now this year is going to be spectacular.

bring it on.

in january we had just moved to tampa and i got lost every time i drove by myself and would end up crying in a parking lot somewhere.

in february bennett took me to st. augustine for a surprise birthday trip, i saw the civil wars live, and i began my new job as an art teacher.

in march my mom and little sister came to visit and we went to disney world. then we went to nashville for my spring break and i didn't want to leave.

in april we spent a lot of time at the beach. i was pretty homesick and the sun and waves made it a little better.

in may we signed the lease to rent our little house. a week later we found out i was going to be a mama and bennett was going to be a papa. we were terrified and over the moon excited. we also celebrated our first wedding anniversary.

in june i finished teaching and then the morning sickness kicked in. my little sister came to visit and i puked a lot.

in july i stayed in bed a lot thanks to constant nausea. my belly started growing and we announced our news to the world.

in august stephanie came to visit. i started teaching again and my nausea went away. we got to see our baby girl for the first time and had a party to reveal her gender. bennett felt her kick for the first time.

in september i started feeling homesick again and took a weekend trip to nashville by myself. it was wonderful. i also made a friend. she makes tampa a happier place.

in october i took bennett to see andrew bird for his birthday. baby girl loved it and danced in my belly the whole time. my older sister got married in nashville and had an incredibly beautiful wedding.

in november my friends threw me a beautiful baby shower in nashville. i was in another wedding and then spent thanksgiving in nashville with my family. also my belly got huge.

in december i was thrown another beautiful baby shower, this time by bennett's family. i finished teaching and we had my first christmas away from my family, and our last christmas as just the 2 of us.

38 weeks

it's hard to believe that baby girl could be here any day now.

we have everything ready.

car seat installed

clothes washed

bags for the birthing center packed...

all we have to do is wait. 

i'll be 38 weeks tomorrow.

the birthing center doesn't do internal checks until i go into labor

so i have no idea if i'm progressing at all

(which is a good thing so i don't get my hopes up)

but i just have a feeling she'll be here sooner rather than later.

come on baby girl.

we can't wait to meet your sweet face!

christmas eve

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merry christmas eve!

this is my first christmas away from my family

so it's a little bitter-sweet.

it's hard to be so far away from them

but it's also nice to have this time with bennett

to prepare for baby girl

who could be here any day now!

i hope everyone has a relaxing holiday

filled with plenty of family, food, and love.

full term and full of germs.

today baby is full term.

today i am also sick as a dog and stuck in bed.

it's crazy to think that at any time now

there will be a tiny baby sleeping right across from me.

i'll lie in bed and listen to her breathing

and everything will be right in the world.

i just really hope she waits a bit longer

so i can beat off these germs i caught from the kiddos at school.

i mean seriously.

WHY did i have to get sick now!?

christmas cheer around these parts

1. ornament made from last year's tree stump

2. grandma's old ornament hangers

3. garland lights, all night every night

4. DIY waterless snow globe

5. bringing home the tree

6. garland

7. all decorated

december 1st means...

today is december 1st.

usually on this day i'm so excited because 

only 25 more days until christmas!

start the advent calendar!

it's officially christmas time!

but this year is a little different.

of course i'm excited for christmas

but guys...

i'm having a baby next month.

NEXT MONTH.

i can officially say that.

and it's slightly terrifying but mostly awesome.

so to celebrate we're going out today to not only buy a christmas tree

but also get everything i need for my birthing center bag.

i just can't believe how close we are to meeting this little girl.

happy december 1st.

things

want to know something crazy?

in a little under 4 weeks i'll be full term.

as in,

this baby could be here so freakin soon.

...we have only one pack of diapers

and her crib is full of books, baby things, and laundry.

as i write this post

she has something lodged under my ribs

and the entire right side of my belly is doing the wave.

i am starting to wonder if i have a baby in here

or something out of a sci-fi movie.

even if she comes out as an alien i think i'll still like her.

and i gained 12 pounds in just 2 weeks.

so there's that.

happy thursday.

thankful

i'm thankful for waking up cuddled next to my husband this morning

with a hiccuping baby girl in my belly,

for the crisp nashville air,

for amazing friends that make me feel like i never left home

and for new tampa friends that make living far away a little easier,

for cranberry ginger-ale

and chocolate with sea salt,

for our incredible parents and families that make sure we have everything we need,

for my birthing center and midwives

who are helping to prepare me for this exciting adventure of childbirth,

and for this amazing life i have

where no matter how rough and uncertain things get

i am loved

i am happy

and i wouldn't change a thing.

happy thanksgiving, everyone.

today

today i spent the morning with the 2 adorable kiddos i used to nanny

ate lunch with my mom at my favorite taco spot satco

spent some time with a dear friend and her sweet baby boy

and now i'm going to take a nap 

before i go pick bennett up from the airport.

i've got a healthy kicking baby in my belly

christmas music is playing

and tomorrow is thanksgiving eve.

could i be happier?

absolutely not.

happy tuesday.

nashville

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at the moment i'm sitting at the airport waiting to board my flight to nashville.

my last trip home before baby girl's arrival.

it's a very strange feeling.

i don't think i've really comprehended the fact

that next time i go to nashville i'll have a tiny one in tow.

i mean, 

how can one possibly realize how much their life is about to change?

next time i hop on a plane

i'll have a sweet baby girl cuddled close to me in her sling.

my home will be a strange place to her.

the place i grew up in

and took my first steps in

will be foreign to her.

and we won't just be visiting my parents.

they'll be her grandparents.

and my sisters will be her aunts.

and i'll get to show her all of my favorite places.

and she'll just be this tiny human being taking it all in through her big eyes.

and when she gets older i'll tell her about my childhood

and show her the creek where we would catch crawdads

and the hill where we'd go sledding

and the bushes where i'd pick branches of honeysuckle.

and then i'll show her things like the park where her mama and papa went on their first date

and where they held hands for the first time

and kissed for the first time.

i can't wait to show this baby girl the world.

show her all of the beautiful things that make my heart so happy.

i can't wait.