i'm taking my blog back.

i just spent about 30 minutes going through all my old blog posts

and it made me sad.

sad because i used to take so many pictures

with my holga

and polaroid

and film.

and sad because there was so much substance to my posts.

so much feeling.

so much love.

lately blogging has felt like a chore.

i'll write a couple sentences about the same thing i wrote about last week

or post something neat i came across on pinterest.

and i don't like it.

i want to have my blog to look back on years from now

to remember what made me happy

and what i loved about my life.

i'm not saying i shouldn't complain every once and a while

(i mean, c'mon. it's me after all)

but i should at least try harder to focus on the good rather than the bad

and take more time to thoughtfully write posts.

because i want this blog to go back to its roots.

to remember the little things in life that make me happy.

here's to trying a little harder from now on.