summer comes with its color all to take your breath away

so long snuggling, movies, and endless naps. i'm back in nashville. bennett won't be back until next weekend, so i only have to wait one more week until my summer can officially start. i feel like making a list. so here are the highlights of this past week with bennett in tampa:

• sleeping until the afternoon
• double stuf oreos
• hot-tub
  
• long naps
• so much snuggling
• belly rubs
• poker with his family (and almost winning)
• new music from iron & wine and grizzly bear
• cali yogurt
• going to a wedding
• getting to see bennett play at a wedding
• watching a thousand movies (or tristan + isolde, when nietzsche wept, x-men origins: wolverine, tuck everlasting, moulin rouge, angels & demons, and up)

traveling mercies

today was such a wonderful day. bennett was feeling so much better so we were able to get out of the house. we went to the movie theater and saw up, which i highly recommend (although i have to warn you, i cried after the first 10 minutes or so, and yes, i know it is a childrens movie). then after dinner we went to cali yogurt and made a list of everything we're going to do together this summer as we sat outside eating our pink grapefruit yogurt.

then tonight, as we sat outside on the dock, i was reminded of how blessed i am. despite everything we have gone through this year, every surgery and every doctors apointment, we have eachother. everything will be ok. in the book i am reading called traveling mercies, the author says this:

when a lot of things start going wrong all at once, it is to protect something big and lovely that is trying to get itself born--and that this something needs for you to be distracted so that it can be born as perfectly as possible.

every time bennett has a headache or doesn't feel well, my heart breaks. it scares me more than anything. but i have to have faith that he will be ok. all of this is happening for a reason. something so big and so wonderful is going to come into our lives, and we just have to be distracted for a little bit so it can be perfect. i am blessed. i have loved more than some people ever get to love in their lifetime. i can't take that for granted.

still in florida

i apologize for the lack of posts.
we were supposed to come back to nashville yesterday, but because of bennett's headaches we are sticking around for a few more days for more doctors appointments and what not. i am so ready for this all to be over.

weekend

be back monday : )

have a wonderful weekend!

i know i will.

5 wonderful things:

• seedless watermelon
• temporary tattoos
• fresh squeezed lemonade
• the sound a polaroid camera makes when you take a photo
• love

tomorrow

22 more hours....

lovely day

today i was walking around outside while talking to bennett on the phone and i spotted the most lovely thing. so of course i ran inside to get my camera, because that way i can keep it with me forever. look, it's a heart! there was just one little yellow leaf growing among all the green.

tomorrow is going to be wonderful because i am baby sitting in the morning, selling paletas in the afternoon, and then going to bed really really early so i can wake up and fly to bennett! hooray!

four paletas

today was a good day.

i ate four paletas

(strawberry banana, grapefruit, chocolate mint, and watermelon)

and ate a whole sleeve of saltine crackers

which is my favorite snack.

my belly is very happy.

and i watched doubt which i very much enjoyed.

then i got to video chat with this boy...

but i really don't like saltine crumbs on my bed sheets. no matter how hard i try to brush them all off they just don't seem to completely go away.

i don't like crowds

tonight i went to my friends graduation at my old high school and it was loud and crowded 

and i couldn't even move so i started to freak out 

because i hate being around tons of people,

it makes me so scared,

and i just wanted to find a quiet corner but there wasn't one

and girls are just plain mean

and i am so glad i'm not in high school anymore.

all i want to do is cuddle with bennett

and he will kiss my forehead and my freckle by my nose

and rub my belly

and tell me that everything's ok.

but he is two states away

and i miss him so much it makes my heart hurt.

i don't like night time.

lonely day

it is the rainiest of days. i woke up at noon and didn't feel like doing anything, so i got back in bed and have been looking at blogs for quite some time now. i've been a little bit lonely today, but it's kind of nice, in a way. the dreary weather and the loneliness seem to compliment each other. here are some highlights for this cloudy day:

• i made a list of more things i need to get for my apartment. i'm getting restless. i just want to move in already. 
• my best friend since the 7th grade is coming home tonight! she makes me laugh more than anyone. 
  
• i found my dream wedding dress. it is incredible. i just have to find it for much cheaper somewhere...
• bennett wants a teacup pig. i don't know how i feel about this yet.
• the 8 year old i babysit called me today and we had a conversation about lemonade stands, video games, planetariums, and thunderstorms.
• i'm listening to thirteen by ben kweller, one of my favorite songs. this isn't much of a highlight though because it just makes me miss bennett a whole lot.

that's all for now. here is one of my favorite photos.

one more thing

don't ever watch p.s. i love you when you're missing someone. that would be a terrible idea. my eyes hurt from crying and i just want to go to sleep. that is all.