then tonight, as we sat outside on the dock, i was reminded of how blessed i am. despite everything we have gone through this year, every surgery and every doctors apointment, we have eachother. everything will be ok. in the book i am reading called traveling mercies, the author says this:
when a lot of things start going wrong all at once, it is to protect something big and lovely that is trying to get itself born--and that this something needs for you to be distracted so that it can be born as perfectly as possible.
every time bennett has a headache or doesn't feel well, my heart breaks. it scares me more than anything. but i have to have faith that he will be ok. all of this is happening for a reason. something so big and so wonderful is going to come into our lives, and we just have to be distracted for a little bit so it can be perfect. i am blessed. i have loved more than some people ever get to love in their lifetime. i can't take that for granted.