i feel like my life right now is in one giant pickle.
bennett and i are great.
we've never been better.
but we have no stability.
right now, we're living off his jimmy johns pay
which is next to nothing
and i can't work because student teaching takes over my life.
so here's the thing...
i graduate in 6 weeks
and bennett will be finding out in march if he gets into grad school.
so we're considering going ahead and moving in january
so we can live with his family for a couple months to save some money
which will allow us to look for jobs, find a house, etc.
the problem is,
i have no idea what to do.
i've never had a "real" job.
it's always been babysitting, nannying, or a summer job.
my degree will be in art education,
but it's very unlikely i'll find a teaching position beginning in january.
i want to make things.
i want to make beautiful things for people.
i want to take photographs.
i want to utilize my creativity.
i want to play with children.
i want to do what i love,
and love what i do.
why does that seem so impossible?
i don't think i'm ready to be a teacher yet.
maybe next fall i will be, but not now.
so what do i do in the meantime?
how do i find a full time job that i will love to do,
and at the same time,
make enough money to support us?
i've been reading etsy's quit your day job posts,
and they're so inspiring.
but in order to get to that point
i need to focus on one thing,
then peruse it.
in the perfect world
we would have some babies,
bennett would get his phd in philosophy and not have to work at the same time,
i would stay home and make things all day,
and money would never be an issue.
until that happens,
i guess i'll have to figure something out...